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Monday, August 17, 2009

Adios malaria, dengue fever, 100 degree weather, blackouts, exhaust-filled taxis, indoor-smoking, tropical storms, and overcrowded buses--all those minute annoyances of a "developing" city that have helped me to appreciate the comfort of my home in the City by the Bay.

After all those years away--either abroad or on the East coast--I can't believe I am finally home! This homecoming feels really different because I'm no longer that kid or teenager who lived without giving much conscientious thought to life, the girl who obeyed her parents and filled her days with school or mindless work. I feel like I am my own person now--empowered, reflective, and purposeful. For the first time, I feel like I am truly and wholly "here."

It's exciting being home because I see the city and the people around me with new eyes. I know I am a different person now, a new creation in Christ. The old has gone and the new has come. Though I appreciate that without the old, there can be no new, and I know that the transformation is not yet complete. So I look forward to continued growth and change, and to being an agent of grace and reconciliation in my community.

May I not get too comfortable and habituated to the status quo. May God continually open my eyes to see the needs and opportunities, and to appreciate the beauty and life that abounds.

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Yesterday (Sunday) I walked to the Mission district early in the morning. O how lovely and peaceful the city can be when it is waking up to the morning sun! It is good that the city rests on the Sabbath day.  It is good that families spend time together, that people socialize at farmers markets and coffee shops. The walk was a rest for my soul.  A time to just "be" and soak in God's goodness after spending the past 6 months running around and doing His work in Myanmar.

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If you haven't noticed, I am 22 years old now. I've passed all the milestones of turning 16 (Hungary), 18 (Panama), and 21 (with Emily).   Though I often still feel like a teenager when I sit here in the apartment that has scantly changed. When I was young, I could only see as far as college. I only worked to get into college. But now that I am out, what shall I make of my life? 

Even though I have a divine purpose, a general compass to point the way as I forge ahead in life, everything seems so much more complex these days.  Perhaps things are complex because I am such an odd person. I don't completely fit in any one community or mold. I grew up moving from one neighborhood/community to another--first the Hispanic, then Asian, then White.  Internally, I've embraced many different cultures and traditions; I've gone from Atheism to Christianity.  I grew up in the Tenderloin but was spoiled for four years in one of the wealthiest communities in America (perhaps one of the wealthiest in the world!).  

Yesterday, I went to two churches.  The first was a large and wealthy church filled with young people--professionals, (very) well dressed, and predominantly white. They all drove in from various parts of town, though I'm sure none came from my neighborhood. I'm sure there were some great people in that room--true Christians who took up their cross to follow Christ.  I felt both comfortable and uncomfortable there.

I felt comfortable because things seemed so perfect. The service flowed flawlessly. Every seat was filled. The sermon was relevant and intellectually engaging. The music was SO good it could have been a professional recording.  The people seemed nice and smart, and needless to say, reminded me of college. The Church building itself was beautiful. I could have been a very comfortable Christian in this church.

But ultimately, I think I was uncomfortable because this reality did not match the reality I saw in the rest of the world. It did not challenge me to step out in faith, but shielded us from the brokenness, injustice, and needs of our community and the majority of the world. 

The second church was the complete opposite of the first. The congregation small, mainly filled with addicts, widows, immigrants, homeless people, and the marginalized.  Though over half the seats were empty. 
The service was disorganized and informal. The music and singing might have deterred the Holy Spirit.  Nothing was quite intellectually engaging. The only thing that was spiritually fulfilling was my personal time of prayer and reflection. On the whole, I was quite dissatisfied.

But nonetheless, I felt a sense of comfort and belonging because I knew that these people loved me and loved one another. I was touched by their commitment and faithful dedication to God's work. The handful of members were there that Sunday because they wanted to thank and love the God who very tangibly gave them hope and a new life. I was so humbled to see how the grace of God filled that room.

So now I feel quite caught in the middle, not knowing what church to attend or how I can best serve, grow, and glorify God. A part of me is also very saddened to see such segregation and divides in the church.  In the end, I know that God is in control. And whichever church or ministry He ultimately leads me to, I hope to fully invest in it.



Wednesday, January 23, 2008

When elephants fight

“When the elephants fight, the grass gets trampled.” So says an East African proverb. Weeks after the elections in Kenya, the elephants (the power brokers, the presidential candidates, the incumbent now sworn in again and his powerful opponent) have yet to sit down together. Meanwhile, the fragile blades of grass – the poor, the disenfranchised, the homeless, the ‘internally displaced refugees’ – continue to be trampled, even as their plight disappears from our TV screens and newspapers.

On January 2nd, Americans woke to shocking photos and even more shocking reports of a church burned while desperate Kenyans hid – and died – inside. What could have caused neighbor to turn against neighbor? What happened in Eldoret that caused the angry to invade even the sanctuary of a church to maim and murder?

The events of the previous week in Kenya – elections, allegations of vote rigging, the verbal protests and initial forays into violence – had been eclipsed by news from Pakistan and the general euphoria of New Year’s celebrations around the globe. The history of this ‘island of calm,’ neighbor of countries in continual crisis – Ethiopia, Sudan, Uganda, Rwanda, Congo – remains largely hidden from view.

But to understand the slaughter in Eldoret, the burning of Nairobi’s slum communities and the devastation in western Kenyan towns, one must understand the undercurrents that undergird Kenyan politics. And one must see the faces, know the lives behind the statistics.

As U.S. students travel each summer to Kenya to learn and minister alongside Kenyan students in cross-cultural situations with rural pastors, in urban slum communities and rural mission hospitals, they must first gain some basic understanding of their host culture. The staff director of the Kenya Global Project asked his Kenyan counterpart, “What ten things do our students need to know about Kenya in order to understand the culture?” The answer: “The first thing to understand is the influence of tribalism.”

The face of tribalism
In the late 19th century, Great Britain began the process of carving out a colony in East Africa. Within its bounds were at least forty-two unique people groups, or tribes. As the colony of Kenya gained independence in 1963, these groups pulled together to form a republic, tied together with the common trade languages of Swahili and English.

Nevertheless, these 42 groups remain distinct in mother tongue, culture, traditions. Colorful and varied. Tied to land and family. Loyalty to extended family expands to deep political loyalty to one’s tribe. Even today, urban dwellers maintain strong ties to homes ‘up-country.’ For example, Nairobi has only one main cemetery; most people prefer burial on family land. Inter-tribal marriages present as many complications as inter-racial marriages elsewhere.

Large urban churches and inter-denominational groups on university campuses must deal with these issues biblically, fighting the tendency for students and parishioners to congregate with those of like background rather than modeling the unity across cultures called for in Scripture. When students or leaders wish to marry across tribal lines, joining two diverse extended families is indeed a challenge.

The current crisis sees divisions across tribal lines, especially between the Kikuyus – the tribe of the incumbent and re-elected president, Mwai Kibaki, and the Luos – the tribe of the opposition leader, Raila Odinga. But there are also divisions geographically and economically, even young against old.

Stories of restoration
If hope in gaining political power can be dashed so easily, and hope seems so far away economically, where is hope to be found?

Eric Miller, a longtime Link missionary in Nairobi, wrote in late December:

I live about a mile from Kibera, the largest slum in sub-Saharan Africa. In addition to working with students, I am involved in training pastors of very small congregations in the slums of Nairobi – the pastors have named this group the All Clergy’s Network…Last night I watched from my roof as fire lit up the sky over Kibera as house after house, shop after shop were torched. The same scene is being played out all over the country. My friends have so far been spared but are holed up in their small homes in fear. I’ve heard sporadic gunfire all morning.
In early January, he added:
One Kibera pastor’s congregation has had all their businesses burnt. Two others are in especially dangerous situations. In the morning, I will join the group who is dividing up tasks for the interchurch effort to help refugees.” And later, we “need to list those who are [most] needy. We can focus on those our All Church Network members serve – not just their members, but also their neighbors without regard to ethnicity or religion. Of special concern are those who are trapped in the slums because of ill health (HIV/AIDS, etc.) or fear.
Most of the people involved in this effort are Kenyans, with a few ex-pats willing to be used to take risks to acquire food and rebuilding supplies which the Kenyan pastors then distribute to their parishioners and neighbors. The coalition of churches includes Nairobi Baptist Church, All Saint’s Cathedral, Nairobi Chapel, and Nairobi Pentecostal Church – Valley Road. Organizations involved include World Relief, World Vision, and Feed the Children.

While many across the country express concern that churches and pastors themselves have been caught up in the tribalism, others are courageously speaking out for peace, justice and reconciliation. (At times, those who act as peacemakers themselves come under attack.) Perhaps two short illustrations, one from a large church in Nairobi, and the other from an interdenominational relief organization, will provide glimpses of the hope of Christ in the midst of crisis. (The writer, from World Relief Canada, requested anonymity.)

Yesterday, we worshiped at All Saints Anglican Cathedral in Nairobi. The church service gives us hope for the future of Kenya. The priest talked very openly about tribalism and how we should not be controlled by it. One leader made a public confession of how the church … has been remiss in teaching about love, not doing enough to bring about peace, justice and reconciliation between peoples. Instead of shaking hands and wishing each other peace, congregants were encouraged to hug those around them, while expressing the following words, ‘As long as I live, I promise to love you.’ There was no attempt to somehow spiritualize the madness of the past week. What was said was honest, raw and current.

This morning, staff held our usual Monday morning devotions. But today was not normal. One staff led us in a prayer to focus on healing, reconciliation and forgiveness. A number of staff were asked to pray as representatives of their tribe. This was both a painful, and a vulnerable experience. One staff prayed that ‘we are taught to believe that the Kikuyu are thieves. But I know that Ann (name changed) is not a thief. I know that pastor Bill (name changed) is not a thief. We need to have our eyes opened to the destructive forces of racism.’ We were reminded that just before Christmas break we sat together on the grounds outside our office and celebrated our oneness. We laughed together. We celebrated our unity, but also our uniqueness as representing different tribes.

So here we see signs of hope. Yes, the elephants continue to fight, and attempt to draw others to join them. But here and there, patches of Kenya’s grass slowly unfurl to stand together for Christ. And they ask us to pray for their courage.


Sunday, January 13, 2008

picture time!

India:






   

China:


check out what this guy is writing..



The Yangtze river and the Three Gorges Dam....
..a really complicated and sad story. Pray that the dam project succeeds or it could become a huge tragedy/disaster.

Argentina:




House of Chinese culture.


Tuesday, September 11, 2007

We visited an invisible city within the city today. According to all the maps of Buenos Aires, this city is non-existent, though over 35,000 people live in these 65 hectares of land.

During the 1978 world championships, the government hid the city by building a wall around it.  It doesn´t have a real name, but is referred to as "the neighborhood" or in politics, shanty town #21.

50 years ago this area was a complete waste land, the garbage dump of the city. It is situated on the bank of the most contaminated river in the world and there is no avoiding the nasty stench that plagues every corner. Even today the roads are paved with nothing but trash, polluted water, and dirt.  Though part of a worldclass megacity, this comunity recieves no electricity, running water, or any sort of public services. The police don´t come here to protect but to repress. For an invisible people, there is no such thing as law enforcement.   

The children do not tresspass through the borders of the surrounding communities. They have no place in the fancy new malls and plazas, grand avenues and high rises, or classy neighborhoods that fill the same city. Some of these are 2nd or 3rd generation shanty town dwellers and know nothing else.  For so many of them, there is no more work ethnic, no effort, no hope. Even young people hook up just to concieve children and relieve their poverty through government aid.

And the government´s role in this? The only response the government has had towards shanty towns is eradication. Eradication means going in with a bulldozer for the instant destruction of thousands of homes.  Within the urbanized culture of anonymity and passivity, insititionalized Politics is selfish politicians and corruption; a vote means nothing but an exchange for a kilo of food or cash.

A more prominent and hopeful source of informal politics is the church. The church is more than a religion, but a social movement. The front of the church is painted with a revolutionary Jesus advocating for peace, equality, and justice, followed by children and flags of every nation. This holistic incarnational ministry leads in the organization of an invisible people and serves social, poltical, and spiritual purposes.

Over the past year, the population of this shanty town alone has increased by over 30% and towns like this have been popping up all over the Buenos Aires province.  Though Argentina is a huge country with so many natural resources, every province is dependent on its one capital city and people have no other way of survival, but to come to the city.  The system is such that the city usurps resources from the rest of the country and as Argentina "progresses," the disparities and inequalities are growing greater than ever.

This is only a snippit of what I have been seeing. The crazy system under which humanity operates is so broken, I don´t even know where to begin fixing it. It is in the face of hopelessness that I hang on to God and His promises and faithfulness to us. I am such an idealistic person and want so much to see our world transformed, a transformation that will only take place when Jesus comes in all His glory. 

Still, I hope I am ready to listen and obey when God shows me my place and role in all of this while I am here on Earth. Please pray for peace, wisdom, and discernment, as there is so much running through my mind right now. And don´t forget the millions of invisble people living in slums and shanty towns all over the world tonight.

-Annie


Monday, September 10, 2007

Its a rainy day here in Buenos Aires.  The sidewalks are not only wet and full of put holes, but also an un parallel amount of dog droppings.  The Porteños (the name for residents of buenos aires) are a bit less friendly than I expected, but I tend to forget that I´m in a megacity and not an african village.  I guess this is as friendly as it gets in the face of urbanization.

Its been an intense couple of weeks. We´ve been introduced to the hundreds of problems and issues of the city--poverty, segregation, sustainable enviornment, waste removal, politics, corruption, gentrification, and shanty towns are just a handful of them. Its scary to think that cities are the future of humanity in our system...its said to be the most efficient way to sustain a growing population. Within a decade or two, the world is projected to have over 60 megacities (san francisco is not one of them yet). A lot of the things I´m learning are quite depressing....  I don´t think I will ever see the world in the same way again. 

The other day I had a really interesting conversation with an Indigenous woman from the Amazon who was making and selling her jewlery. Spanish was a second language for both of us. There isn´t even a handful of indengous people in the city anymore, it prides itself in being a very European city. The indigenous have been tragically persecuted in the past and I´m sure there is still quite a bit of prejudice towards them in many parts of latinoamerica. Though they are no longer persecuted, the indigenous everywhere are greatly exploited.

Anyway, this woman named cielo azul is from a hidden village in Peru. (I wonder if the government truly has no knowledge of their existence) Her greatest desire is for her village to remain unkown and uncontaminated from the world, suggesting that ignorance is bliss. Cielo Azul (blue sky) left her village when she was a young woman and now has no other option but to remain in the world to support her children (she´s a single mother who suffered years of abuse from a non-indigenous husband). Her children want nothing to do with thier indigenous roots. Every 3 months she goes back to visit her village but she has to enter and leave the village empty handed. Its a journey through the amazon that takes several days on foot. Cielo Azul described thier way of life to me and it seemed so beautiful, almost like a utopian society. Of a population of 5,000, only 3 of them are "in the world". (And they practice population control by limiting births to two children per woman)

I attended church all weekend long and it was quite interesting and very refreshing. There are several Salvation army corps here (most of them in the poor, needy, and dangerous parts of town! yay!) I definitely missed it and needed it--it is always so encouraging to see the church doing God´s work in the world. It is super hard to connect with people in the city, a lot harder than all the other places I´ve been to. The church has really been the only viable way. 

Many of the students in my group are struggling with community and adjustment, and fustrated and confused with all the issues that we are learning about--so keep us in your prayers. It´s only been a week but it feels so much longer, I am more homesick than ever on this trip but as always, God has been so good and faithful and he is providing for us and showing us great things here. So I am so thankful and excited for all that He has planned for us.

blessings,

Annie

 



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